Dog In Bulgaria Had All 4 Legs Chopped Off!

On March 26th Dobromir Donchev from Drianovo,Bulgaria found Mima lying crippled near his home. All four paws of the 5-years -old female dog were axed. Donchev took Mima to the vet immediately where she was stabilised. Nevertheless Mima will be most probably put to sleep. Her paws were cut in such a barberic way that it is almost impossible to be replaced.

Mima's owner is sure the crime was done by a neighbour because of an old fight. But there is nothing he can do about it. There is no zoo police in Bulgaria and no proper punishment for such acts.

Young people from Drianovo now, are gathering signatures asking the Bulgarian Prime Minister for justice. Please show your support and hopefully this case will set the long waited changes of Bulgarian Law against Animal abuse.

Please sign this petition:

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/1/punishment-for-the-man-crippled-mima

This happened in Bulgaria in the small town of Dryanovo two days ago. Mimi is a 5 year old female dog who "has an owner" but lives outside since she was a puppy. [link to zonabg.info]

The police is "investigating" although the law for this is a fine of 300$. So far no one knows who did it. And the police does not care about animals, so the possibility of them finding anything is very slim. There is no Humane Society in Bulgaria.

There is a Facebook group already created regarding this issue that have +104 thousand members and another one who calls for legal protest. People are trying to get the dog from her "owner". Also animal lovers will boycot the Parliament for better and stronger law.

Video located on internet:

http://www.facebook.com/l/60ccf;novinitepro.bg/bulgaria/beznakazana-zhestokost-nasilieto-nad-zhivotni-prosto-narushenie-u-nas.html

It shows Mimi at her home, her present condition, and the conditions she's living in. Her owner clearly loves her, but it's apparent how much the poor baby is suffering physically & emotionally.

One pathetic experience

Z has been ill for quite some time & yesterday we convinced her to go for a check-up. We searched for a new doctor, but even this one turned out to be a character. The 1^st thing she said to Z was…’But you don’t look sick at all.’ I think doctors ought to have the courtesy to at least believe what the patient is saying.

Anyhow, Z wanted me to tell her everything & again she had a problem with it. She was unprofessional enough to tell us that most of the models that come to her are all cracked. Since she herself was on a diet, she presumed that Z & I were also depriving ourselves. She also asked Z to have a couple of tests & then she also asked me to have one particular test. Although at no point, I said anything about myself, but she was adamant that I have lost weight due to crash diet. I have no fucking idea as to what diet is & she has never seen me eating when I’m really hungry. All I can say is that people like me can never diet as it makes hungry. Even when I was healthy, I didn’t think of it. But yes people had problem with my weight even then.

She also said that there must be some deficiency in us as we are so weak. My mom was also showering unnecessary affection on Z as she’s the youngest one & that was annoying. For a long time when I wasn’t friends with Z as she was a kid, I thought she was the apple of the eye. Everyone projected that kind of image & I believed it, but it was so not true. I made the discovery when we became friends. Although Z has her breakfast almost every day, but ammi said that she doesn’t eat anything in the morning.

Over all, it was a pathetic experience. It seems all doctors are inhuman. She was definitely not any different from that doctor who has issues with me & my cats. Which reminds me that I know 4 vets & they are far better doctors even though we don’t have proper equipments & facilities in Pakistan for animals. They are the ones who always point out that the pain of the animal is far worse than we could possibly image. I’m sorry to say but I haven’t seen this in doctors for humans.

I also have encountered a couple of other weird doctors who couldn’t help imposing their own views on patients, besides bitching about some unknown patient. Right now I’m not in the mood to narrate their stories. If you don’t happen to be like such humans, then you must have experienced something of the sort. I have even heard that some doctors call mentally ill people pagal. This speaks highly about them & how unprofessional they are. In order to reach your patient, you must 1st believe in him & then try to understand his problem rather than passing judgment or imposing abhorrent & irrelevant views.

List Is Cut

I was thinking I should write this blog post now. For the last one week, I had been planning to do so. But, I have been ill and down with viral shit even now so couldn't get the time.

I don't know if you ever felt this way. You put down a things to do list. The important list. And then you ensure all the things are done. You focus on them one by one putting your 100% efforts. In some cases even more than the 100%. May be this is something many people can relate too.

Anyway, I realized that I did work on my list too. The thing is that every time, the end result wasn't anything good. In some cases there was no result at all. Even after putting in so much effort, you're still standing at the same place. So, I cut down one thing and thought may be this wasn't meant to be, so let's focus on the other thing.

Now, after some good years, I have seen that everything on the list has been cut down because none of them were achieved. This, I say is sheer shitty hard luck too because the stuff wasn't anything out of this world either. It was pretty ordinary after all.

So, now I am tired. I think it's time for me to say to Nadzy that write whatever you like here. I don't think that anyone would be coming to our blog and would be interested in reading our stories.

The feelings are far stronger than what I have written here. But I guess, I am even tired of writing stuff down right now.

27th March 2010

Yesterday I was thinking that at times we do things just for our family, friends, peers, and acquaintances. As such there is no benefit whatsoever & yet we do that. It’s not investment of any kind. Mostly, we are well aware that we won’t get anything in return.

However, not expecting anything in return is something we learn due to bad experiences, which is handed over to us by those we thought were our friends & loved ones. I’m not complaining. Some people take way too long to learn.

I was an idiot. Although I have no regret for being one. Some people always learn through the hard way. But I’m not sorry for anything. More importantly, it has finally dawned on me that I’m also not sorry for losing all those people.

My mafia profile

This is one long & bizarre story, but I’m going to cut it short & make it less boring. However, it’s only for those who are hooked to Mafia Wars.

I’m actually a tagged member of one of the clans. Clans usually go to wars with other clans. My performance had been good, (as I have been into hit list killings & taking care of bullies), so they asked me to become one of their officers. I was reluctant, but then they convinced me. Ever since people have started adding me like mad. My profile is already very crowded. I don’t have anything against adding people, but I haven’t been able to manage that well. People I have accepted so far, I haven’t been able to send mafia request & most of them are also in some sort of slumber themselves. I so feel like deleting them from my circle.

The clan head suggested to me that I should make another profile just for MW, then I won’t be bothered as such. In fact, this suggestion has been given to other members also. It has become too difficult for all of us. The thing is…even when I ignore, they add me the next day.

Anyhow, yesterday I created my mafia profile & my sister was saying that there would be too much pressure on me & I should have done this earlier. A couple of my mafia friends suggested it to me earlier on, but maintaining 2 accounts is a very difficult thing. Right now I only give 15 to 20 minutes to this new profile & yes I don’t know for how long this romance is going to last.

Anyway, those who play mafia are most welcome to add me. Here’s my link:

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?ref=profile&id=100000886367568

I was seriously wondering that people would prefer to add someone at a higher level, not someone at level 10. I’m level 513 right now & have got most of the achievements...I still remember it was so difficult to buy 10 Tommy guns. I didn’t know how to play this game strategically & I made so many mistakes. Although starting from the scratch is a pain & they say there’s nothing like the 1^st time. However, I think the 2^nd time has been much better, but nevertheless I suspect I will get tired of this account.

Typical assholes & bitches would say: “Get a life.’ But you know playing games is also life. I so not wish to have those typical options. And I can never understand why only kids can play games, not adults. But I do wish to go to Nathiagali & sleep there for straight 2 days. It’s such peaceful place.

And please add me, if you play mafia. Don’t add me for chit chat. I’m just not the person.

Terrorists 'could use exploding breast implants to blow up jet'

Radical Islamist plastic surgeons could be carrying out the implant operations in lawless areas of Pakistan, security sources are said to warned.

Explosives experts have reportedly said just five ounces of Pentaerythritol Tetrabitrate packed into a breast implant would be enough to blow a “considerable” hole in the side of a jumbo jet.

It would be virtually possible for airport security scanners to detect the explosive if hidden inside a breast, medics have said.

Joseph Farah, a terrorism expert, told The Sun: "Women suicide bombers recruited by al-Qaeda are known to have had the explosives inserted in their breasts under techniques similar to breast enhancing surgery."

Plastic surgeons may also have inserted the chemical into the buttocks of would-be suicide bombers.

The discovery was reportedly made after Umar Farouk Abdulmutallab, a London-educated Nigerian, attempted to blow up an airliner bound for Detroit on Christmas day with explosives packed into his underpants.

Hours after his attack failed, British intelligence services reportedly picked up “chatter” from Pakistan and Yemen that alerted them to the bizarre new method.

One plastic surgeon told The Sun: "Properly inserted the implant would be virtually impossible to detect by the usual airport scanning machines.

"You would need to subject a suspect to a sophisticated X-ray. Given that the explosive would be inserted in a sealed plastic sachet, and would be a small amount, would make it all the more impossible to spot it with the usual body scanner."

Osteogenesis Imperfecta (OI)

I did mention OI in one of my write-ups. Actually OI is a rare genetic disorder. It affects collagen levels, so that bones break easily. It’s also known as brittle bone disease. Although the bones break quite easily, but it doesn’t mean it hurts any less. Even if you happen to know wrestlers, you may still not know the trauma of having a broken bone. It’s bad. It’s really bad.

Kids with OI often have anxiety issues, because of the worry & avoidance behavior they exhibit to keep from suffering a break. They sometimes develop post-traumatic stress disorder after particularly severe fractures…As kids with OI grow up, they want to be independent – but they can’t be as functionally independent as able-bodied teens. The struggle can cause kids with OI to become introverted, depressed, perhaps even suicidal.

The fact is…healthy people do not make friends with people having such illnesses. When I was in college, there was a girl who had some problem. I don’t know what it was, but she was a laughing stock. Everyone used to complain that she had a perpetual grin on her face. Once this mean girl said that her entire family looked retarded. I only talked to her 3 or 4 times, but my gang never missed any opportunity to badmouth about her. If she used to wave at someone, people couldn’t help ignoring her & later on they also bitched about her as they were embarrassed. I also had this classmate in my uni who was blind. People used to talk to him though but most of the females had this set opinion that he was sick & all that.

But then again we cannot experience everything in life to know how bad it is. My point is simple…if you haven’t lived someone’s life, which you haven’t…you don’t know what it’s like when that person takes some drastic measure & I guess it’s utterly heartless being judgmental about something you don’t know anything about. I don’t know if this world could become a better place, cause ordinary minds are mostly busy judging or thinking they are the only victims.

I watched Shutter Island again & I didn’t like the doctor who said that wounds create monsters & you are wounded. He was quite inhuman & sarcastic. It reminded me of my mom’s favorite doctor who has issues with my cats & me. And I couldn’t help thinking that patients who frequently visit such bastards must face these headaches. Doctors may think whatever they want to, but they shouldn’t say it aloud when they have so much problem in telling you about your illness in the 1^st place. A layman may not know about illnesses, but a doctor certainly does & when they start judging patients, it only indicates how low humans are who have taken oaths & yet have forgotten everything about it.

I’d repeat myself again…in order to sort out any problem, we need to understand what has caused it & why there is no solution, if there’s none.

Have a good look at the pics…I’m not asking you to sympathize with them. I’m also not asking you to understand. I just want to say it’s a pity that people have to go through shit to know about its existence; & if it hasn’t touched your life, it just doesn’t exist.

Sometimes there is anxiety…you may not talk about it, but it shows. Switching into depression can be the next step. It may sound boring but a lack of serotonin impairs one’s capacity to concentrate at work, to sleep, to eat & to enjoy life. When this substance is completely absent, the person experiences despair, pessimism, a sense of futility, tiredness, anxiety, difficulty in making decisions, & would end up sinking into permanent gloom, which could lead either to complete apathy or to suicide. You might not have experienced this, but this happens.

I was supposed to write just on OI, but then I got carried away. Actually my conclusion should have been: is it right to lay the blame on the patient? But then it dawned on me…those who support these patients will support them no matter what. I guess it’s not just strays that people can’t stand & hate for no valid reason whatsoever, they also can’t stand anyone who is not normal like them.

My holiday

It's 23rd of March and I was so looking forward to this holiday since so many weeks. But yikes since last night I had the terrible backache and fever. I couldn't sleep all night. I kept getting up for hours, then went to mommy's room, told her I am not well. Restless and painful. I feel old.
The urge to have a good massage is very much there now to lessen the pain. I miss the Thailand trip and those massages.


Nadzy has been very kind to me today. Gave me medicine. And she watched Shutter Island again. But I slept again while watching it. She even got this horrible movie....Teen Patti. It was ridiculous. I just couldn't watch it. And sometimes even Big B looks damn irritating like his wife.

The D we got ... now everyone in the house pretty much don't like his attitude. As I say...he is the nawab sahab. But, when I was told he himself hates being called a driver and then he talked about that gardener like "the gooongaa didn't come today", now that is something quite weird. Insensitive bitches.

Like I said the last time...I am still looking for the change I talked about the last time.

Shutter Island

Shutter Island is a much watch. The story is such that you’re sure to watch it till the end. It’s just amazing. I think it’s the best movie I’ve seen this year. Leonardo & others have all acted superb. The story revolved around a US Marshal finding a missing person at Shutter Island where they keep the criminally insane at the hospital. They are basically all dangerous criminals & this movie also highlights how mental illness can make you a monster.

One of the doctors says: Wounds create monsters & you’re wounded.

I think this dialogue is not just crucial, but also very deep. These patients could imagine a story that hasn’t even happened & they take it as the whole truth.

You decipher the real story in the end. All along you think, something else is happening whereas the real story takes you on a totally different level. The twist is that Leonardo is not a Federal Marshall anymore, but a mentally disturbed officer who has spent 2 years at this hospital. Right from the outset, he suffers from hallucinations, flashbacks & weird dreams. Anyhow the credit goes to Martin Scorsese for creating such a great asylum drama & Leonardo, of course, never disappoints his fans.

I also liked Case 39 & Edge of Darkness. Although Edge of Darkness is depressing, but Case 39 is fun to watch, if you like horror element. Percy Jackson & the Olympians is a light movie & Uma Thurman plays the role of Medusa & she looks just great. I did enjoy watching it.

21st March’ 10

Whenever any of my pet dies, I never have the courage to go through his photos. And if I come across one, it’s pure torture. However, yesterday I plucked the courage to see Fluffy again. It’s true that good & bad memories can never balance each other. My last memories of Fluffy haven’t been nice. I couldn’t help asking myself as to where we went wrong.

We lack in diagnosis & not much could have been done. There is no ultrasound for animals. What else did we expect? His death was inevitable. The vets did whatever they could. They couldn’t find out what was wrong with him, but when they did, one vet did the surgery immediately without wasting any time.

But what I don’t get is that bad memories seem to weigh far more than the good ones. I remember details of the pics that I had taken. There were a couple of photos in which he was looking outside the window & then suddenly he became playful & within few seconds, he wanted to leave the room. It all seemed cute at that time. I even thought of posting those pics, but then I just couldn't.

I actually hated the pics that were taken on the last day & this is one of them. I hate myself more as I knew he wouldn’t make it & yet I wasn’t willing to give up on him. These pics are a grim reminder that I couldn't do much to lessen his pain. They say love will stand the test of time. I think it's bull shit. I feel I was a big disappointment & love in any form only makes one cry.

Fluffy died on 1^st November & the baby brother of Coco & Brandy was killed in October. That was the most ominous day of my life. It has been almost 6 months, but the peace which I lost on that day, I haven’t retrieved it so far.

I didn’t have time to think of people who had issues with my cats, but then I don’t know what happened. I kept on talking about those assholes & bitches on my blog. You can only judge someone, if you have lived his life. Does it matter what people say when they don’t know you? They may think they know what you’re saying or doing, but they don’t. The fact is…they count for nothing & still I have written so much on them in these 6 months.

I used to say…other than enjoying life, I do nothing. And now I have forgotten that. These 2 deaths haven’t been any different from the death of my father.

Save The Loggerhead Sea Turtle

The loggerhead sea turtle has experienced an aggressive decline in the past decade -- with an 80 percent decrease in the North Pacific and a 40 percent decline in the Northwest Atlantic, their most popular nesting spot.

Right now, the loggerhead sea turtles are only one of six remaining turtle species left in the United States.Fortunately, the National Marine Fisheries Service and the U.S. Fish and Wildlife Service understand the importance of saving our dwindling sea turtle populations, and recently proposed to change the status of the North Pacific and Northwest Atlantic loggerhead sea turtles from threatened to endangered under the Endangered Species Act.

Listing the loggerhead as endangered will be a major step in guarantee further protection. Speak up for sea turtles and sign the petition to list loggerheads as endangered.

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/takeaction/626130272

Signs to know he's not that into you

If you’ve gone out with a guy/girl a couple of times, you are probably wondering if he/she likes you and wants to take it forward. While going outright and asking your date is not always an option, you may be looking for signs to know how he/she feels.

If you are one of those who keeps wondering why your partner hasn’t called back or is too busy for you, maybe you need to realise that he/she is not that into you.

- A lack of physical contact is one of the most obvious signs. If it’s a man you’re wondering about, know that they love to show their affection in the form of holding hands or putting their arm around your waist. If he is keeping a distance, constantly has his hands folded over his chest and avoids eye contact it’s a sign.

-While men may not be fond of phone conversations, if he likes you he will call you back. The same applies for women. If she spends half of your time together chatting with her best friend on the phone, something’s wrong. Further, if you find that your date keeps changing plans, it may show disinterest.

-While it’s good to have your own space in a relationship if your partner disappears for days or weeks altogether, you need to think twice. There is no excuse for a person not being in touch for that long. With the internet, mobile phones and other methods of communication, even if your partner is out of the country he/she should call in every now and again.

-It’s always nice to run errands or do favours for your date, but not all the time. If your date only calls you when he/she needs you to buy some groceries or pick him/her up, it’s time to say no. A good partner will ask for help once in a while.

-A partner who criticises you all the time for small things like the way you are dressed and seems to be starting fights all the time, could be looking for a break-up. If he/she is constantly with a member of the opposite sex, it could mean he/she is looking for options.

-Finally if your date is keeping you away from his/her friends circle or avoiding meeting his/her family, it could mean that he/she is not in it long term. Ask your partner about this and then decide if you want to continue the relationship.

19th March’ 10

“Besides the obvious difference, there was not much distinction between losing a best friend & losing a lover: it was all about intimacy. One moment you had someone to share your biggest triumphs & fatal flaws with; the next minute, you had to keep them bottled inside.”

Yesterday when I read this, naturally it reminded me of my best friend. The strange thing is that we never had fights. Maybe this is one of the reasons why our friendship couldn’t last forever. There are things that I avoided & one day, I just deleted her from my orkut list (not a nice way to get rid of someone, but we were barely friends then). There are times when you have nothing against the person & yet you don’t want that person around. She wasn't the person I made friends with when I was a kid. She wasn't the person I grew up with. I don’t miss her as such.

Actually I miss someone I don’t know, but that dumb ass was always hesitant to talk to me. I was also thinking that Z & I have arguments almost on a daily basis. We hate each other during those fights & then after a while, we forget all that as if nothing has happened. We never explain, because giving explanation could lead to a far bigger argument :P What I like about our relationship is: when we get jealous of each other, we can’t even hide that. I think we can share almost anything. Sometimes she says that I don’t tell her everything & I’m guilty as charged, but Z is not that naughty & she’d actually faint, if I start telling her everything.

I think the 2 people I have bothered the most are my parents & sometimes I wonder it must be so difficult for any parent to put up with a child like me. I’ve a history of firing questions at them. Once my father was reading & I went up to him & I shouted at the top of my voice: why was I conceived in the 1^st place? You 2 don’t love me. I didn’t even wait for his reply, I started throwing his things here & there, & then I left. I still bother my mom. The other day, I again asked her as to why she never left Papa. And to my surprise, she gave me an honest reply that Tariq was born in the 1^st year & it was next to impossible, to get out of that relationship, because of a child.

Getting answers from parents is not an easy thing. It takes years sometimes. Some of my friends used to say that they could not dare to enter their fathers’ rooms just like that & they were startled that I could manage to raise a storm in the presence of Papa. Quite frankly, I don’t know the answer, but I was never scared of him. Whenever I had any problem, he used to tackle it. When I used to cry, he did find a solution to it. When I used to badmouth my siblings for being mean, he used to deal with that.

And this pic was taken by my mother. She really liked my curls, which is why my head wasn’t shaved a million times like that of my elder siblings. On my 2^nd birthday, I forced my parents to get my head shaved & they didn’t want it but I was so adamant that they granted my wish. Once I wanted to wear 2 kinds of shoes on Eid. Both Ammi & Papa tried to convince me that I have a new pair of sandals & I should wear that one rather than these 2 different shoes, but again I didn’t give in. I haven’t changed much I suppose, but you won’t see me wearing 2 different kinds of shoes.

I pity the people who want to reform me. Today I came across this bumper sticker:

Nope I can’t go to hell. Satan still has that restraining order against me.

PS When I started writing this, I had few things in my mind, but then I don’t know what happened…I couldn’t share all of it.

Causes that I support

Being an animal lover reminds me of the causes that I support & believe in. Quite frankly, I don’t expect people to understand why I passionately support these causes. Animals take most of my time & I only write on the other causes whenever I can. And in this society, I don’t think a person like me can make much of a difference. Almost everyone has issues about what I do, what I believe in & what I write. I do hope that at some point in my life I stop bothering myself with such nuisance.

A couple of times I have written on how infants in our country are being murdered & everyone prefers to keep mum about it. Although few people are working on it, but we all know it’s not enough. I have never seen a single Pakistani leaving a comment on that. However, if you write something on incest, rajm or suicide, Muslims have all the time in the world to tell you that they are Muslims & you are kafir.

I have been raised in a family where both my parents have been avid readers. My father was a very knowledgeable & impressive man. I never saw him trying to outdo anyone; more importantly, there was no need as he used to study for himself, not to make an impression on others. My mother is also not a very young person, but whenever I tell her about some scientific break through, she never has any problem in digesting it. I’m the daughter of 2 such individuals & they have taught me one thing that the only way to enlighten your mind is education (acquiring knowledge).

What I’ve learnt myself is that if you want to find a solution, then you must try to understand the problem rather than sticking to the rotten views. I think that illegitimate babies have the right to live. I think laws such as Hudood ordinances & Blasphemy law should be blotted out from the statute altogether as they are being used to settle scores. I think patients suffering from bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, chronic depression, OI, HIV/AIDS need a bit of empathy rather than being judged by ignorant fools.

For instance, if someone has bipolar disorder right from the day he was born…life would be hell on earth for him which many won’t understand as they are busy judging. Treatment is there, but if that patient commits suicide at the age of 17 or 18 which he could, I don’t think the right words for him are weak, selfish & coward. Incest & rape are things that happen everywhere. Those who deny it can go on denying it. Many people even blame the victim who is being raped. That just shows how unsympathetic we are. We are also aware of the fact that rape victims & sexually abused people plunge into depression & if that kind of victim ends his/her life, what kind of word will be used? Similarly people infected with HIV/AIDS also tend to suffer from depression. If they take some drastic step, what then?

“In a world where everyone struggles to survive whatever the cost, how could one judge those people who decide to die?

No one can judge. Each person knows the extent of their own suffering, or the total absence of meaning in their lives.”

Paulo Coelho

And what are the charges against me – that I support these people…that I understand they might be suffering in some way or the other…that I speak on my blog about them? All of it doesn’t give anyone the right to lynch me or try to outdo me.

I will give another example that may not seem to be a problem at all. People will always tell you there are far bigger problems than yours. Now the question I have is: What if nobody ever wants to have sex with you? I think this too is a problem & those who face it may know that. But the word that would be used for such a person is ‘desperate.’

My last example is definitely not at all a problem as such, but I want to give it to elaborate my point as to how things are being taken in our part of the world. I have this problem of low BP ever since I was 14 & I know people who have this problem. When they talk about it, there’s nothing more painful than it on this planet. If you ask me, I don’t even think it’s a problem. It’s easier to form an opinion about others from a distance. You have to have a very broad vision to understand that there are things you may not have experienced, but they can be terribly devastating.

I truly believe that compassion is the key that could make a difference. And in this post, I have been talking about humans & how they suffer. How can you judge anyone? You don’t know the entire story of any human. You know how you live & you know your problems & limitations, but you can’t judge anyone on that basis. That person may have had a totally different background & he may have experienced different things that you have no idea of whatsoever. It also reminds me of our book ‘If Immortals Had Been Immortal.’ You can imagine the scenario yourself, if you use your brain cells. And what’s my fault…I just went a step ahead & thought that we could help out some people in trouble? When I’m busy with my cats & other animals, then people have issues. When I talk about understanding the problems of people, then people have issues. I’m just left with one question: Are you even fucking human? And yeah there’s one more thing that I must say, Oh Lord, forgive them, for they know not.

And Sartre was so right when he said, ‘Hell is other people.’ Beyond any reasonable doubt, humans are the ones who have created hell on earth.

All I know is that before my religious beliefs, I am human & I am not ashamed to be one, cause the God I trust can never have problem with this. And my God is, by all means, not standing with a rod in His hand, cause He is all love.

My net & the idiots

Lately my net has been a bitch & I haven’t been able to play MW as I used to. I have to wait forever & yet I can’t post things about MW in which I need help. Moreover, the damn electricity problem too would aggravate soon. Although it’s equally bad right now. Maybe KESC wants people to come on the road & do some devastating kind of magic.

2, 3 days ago, I got 2 strange comments on FB. And then you know we always hear from people we don’t want to hear. Both these guys added me for MW. One had been in my circle for quite some time. The other when I accepted his request immediately left a comment on my display pic: ‘I think I can learn something out of you.’ One of my friends was in his circle, so I asked him if he knew this man & that I’m deleting him from my circle. After all, what kind of idiot immediately leaves a strange comment on a stranger’s pic! My friend was quite pissed off. He said that he will teach him a lesson for messing with his friend & that I should delete that guy.

The other guy who left a comment on one of my posts thought he was funny. Since I’m an animal lover, so he said: ‘I am Mike & I’m really sweet & loving. I’m looking for a loving home. Why don’t you visit my profile some time?’ I did visit his profile & I removed him from my circle. If anyone wants to know me or wants to make friends with me…he can talk to me like a normal human rather than experimenting. And I don’t know what kind of response they expect of you…Maybe something like: ‘Thank you so much! I love animals & you’re acting like one. And you know what I am sexually aroused by the idea of it. Get yourself castrated now as I believe in neuter & spay.’

“You don’t have to say I love you to say I love you. All you have to do is say my name & I know…When you love someone, you say their name different.”

Jodi Picoult

Achi Zindagi

Achi zindagi guzarnay kay do tareeqay hain:

1. Jo pasand hai usay haasil kar lo


Ya phir...

2. Jo haasil hai usay pasand kar lo.

- Hazrat Ali (AS)

Tragedies ???

Tragedies of a Woman's Life:




1. Nice men aren't handsome.
2. Sexy men aren't nice.
3. Nice and sexy men are already married.
4. Nice, sexy and unmarried men are Gay.

Either way you can’t win

Yesterday, I came across this passage…the protagonist meets a woman who had an abortion as there was some genetic problem. The baby would have been profoundly retarded like a 6-month-old, forever. This is what the lady says:

“Here’s what no one tells you…When you deliver a fetus, you get a death certificate, but not a birth certificate. And afterward, your milk comes in, & there’s nothing you can do to stop it…You can’t win. Either you have the baby & wear your pain on the outside, or you don’t have the baby, & you keep that ache in you forever. I know I didn’t do the wrong thing. But I don’t feel like I did the right thing, either…They gave me a choice & even now I wish they hadn’t.”

Different people suffer in different ways & beyond any doubt, suffering has innumerable faces. It’s another thing that everyone cannot understand. And then it’s hard to change the way you’ve always thought about things.

Pain is something that is experienced by almost everyone in one way or the other & yet people fail to recognize it when it has not touched them. Compassion is such a rare commodity. We can’t face every adversity to know how terrible an experience it could be.

I don’t have kids & I do feel the emptiness, but when I read this, I felt so sorry for this lady, even though she’s a fictitious character. But someone out there must have experienced this & it hurts.

Sunday Tales

Yes, yes I know Nadzy has conquered this blog like anything. It revolves around animals and their abusers and then some talk about madness behind my back. Well, the good thing is that we are not getting any unwanted attention at least :D...thanks to such posts. It reminds me of days when a group of thugs followed us religiously. Good old days man. I sometimes miss them too. Such a long time has passed.

Anyway, I get some decent time to write on weekends only. So, I'll just write some of my thoughts down. Nadzy is taking revenge from me. She talks to me and wants me to get up just the way I did when she slept. She is getting back to me now :x. On both the days I did get up yeah. She is trying this new sleep routine. People try the new diet and stuff and she is working on the sleep routine. It is getting weird. But it is a change yeah.

What really disturbed me today. It angered me a lot. I saw this picture in the paper where some unaware and ignorant Karachi zoo visitors spitted paan on the alligator's face. This is terrible. Terrible! It is not enough that people throw the waste everywhere. But, then poor animals they are the worst victims here. It is not sad. It is so disgusting. Because no body cares, there are no rules and monitoring here. You can see the snapshot I took from Dawn e-paper. People just spoil everything here.

Anyway, besides that our new D doesn't like to work. All he wants to do is run back home. That's another strange trait people have. You are getting paid so you do the work man. But no, people just want money for nothing. And they think people are blind.

And then among some of the few good decisions I have made now, one is to quit smoking. And secondly, keeping myself away from people who pass on negativity. Some people I know are acting weird. They are sad but they force themselves to be so damn happy. I don't get it ...why oh why? Just go with the flow man. It is all natural. But I am sure, they would have some weird opinion about me too.

Yesterday, some GT was organized by another group of fakesters. wow fakesters! That's sounds so wrong :P. I didn't go. I was a bit confused whether to go or not. But then it was useless for me. I wouldn't have enjoyed the fakesters GT and so I stayed back and did my own work. And what they think of me...I really don't care.

We got this new cat. He does fight with other cats when he is in the mood. He is madly in love with a bown kitty Nadzy picked from the road. She is quite lucky. Her story of walking on the road, talking to a funny stranger and then coming in a new home. And then finding a handsome guy. That's quite a happy story. Anyway, this white male cat of ours although he fights with others, he has started acting like a baby. And he gets scared when he sees big shoes, the laptop or even the book.

This friend of mine...she is getting bored these days sitting at home. She says she has a lot of time. She wants to work again. I was telling her that she needs to work on her hobbies. Do things she didn't do before. She needs to go the club and walk and jog. And while she would be walking-swimming-jogging-playing or whatever...she might meet someone totally brand new and who know what would happen.

Yeah - don't get shocked. Even I can spread hope and happiness around :D

Shelter manager denies abuse

The manager of the Robeson County Animal Shelter apologized to town commissioners Thursday for their having received numerous complaints about operations at the shelter.

“This shouldn’t have happened. You have nothing to do with this,” Jeff Bass said. “The shelter is operated by the county. If you receive more complaints, hand them over to us at the shelter or to Bill Smith, the county Department of Health director.”

The shelter is under attack by animal advocates from across the country who are using e-mail and Facebook to charge animal abuse by shelter workers. Because the shelter is located adjacent to the county landfill in St. Pauls, many of the e-mails have been directed to the mayor and town commissioners from activists who believe St. Pauls officials run the shelter.

The commissioners questioned Bass about shelter operations, including allegations that animals are mistreated, unsanitary conditions exist, and animals are euthanized by use of a heart stick without first being sedated.

Bass defended shelter operations, describing the cause of the recent attack by animal rights activists as disgruntled out-of-state animal rescue workers who visited the shelter on Feb. 25 and were denied adoption of certain animals that had not been kept at the shelter the minimum number of hours required by county before adoption.

“I put my foot down and told them they had to follow our rules. Since then problems have been growing ... I made some people angry. They are going to do whatever they can to see me gone and get someone else in my place,” Bass said.

Bass told the commissioners that the shelter operates in compliance with regulations set by the state Department of Agriculture, which regulates North Carolina animal shelters.

“We have to follow all of the rules and keep records of everything we do,” he said. “We never know when they will come in and make an inspection.”

Bass added that state officials on Tuesday and Thursday inspected the shelter and found it to be operating according to regulations. On Thursday, he said, Dr. Lee Hunter, director of the Animal Welfare Section of the state Department of Agriculture and Consumer Services, made the inspection himself and said there were no violations.

“The only thing he found was one puppy bowl that has to be replaced because it had been chewed and some cracks in the floor that need to be filled,” Bass said.

Bass strongly denied allegations that any animals are being euthanized by heart stick without being sedated.

“Charges that we are killing animals without sedation are absolutely untrue,” he said.

“I hate to see animals put down,” Bass told the board. “But what these people don’t understand is that our shelter was built with the main purpose of animal control. It was not built to keep animals for long periods of time. We are not the SPCA, the Humane Society, or an adoption center.”

Commissioner David Ayers, who like other commissioners appeared satisfied with the manager’s explanation of how the shelter operates, questioned Bass on his feelings about animals.

“Are you an animal lover?” he asked.

“Yes,” Bass replied, noting that he has a boxer as a pet.

“Well, continue to do what you have to do,” Ayers said.

http://robesonian.com/bookmark/6688459/article-Shelter%20manager%20denies%20abuse

What's more difficult?

Lately I heard about 2 suicide cases & both were very young guys. One of them hanged himself & the other jumped from the roof of his apartment. Of course no one knows the real reason, but beyond any reasonable doubt, they must have been through hell. Why would anyone want to take his life? Youth itself is hope. Families claimed that things were okay. But can you believe that kind of crap? If everything was okay, why are they dead?

We always hear that suicide is forbidden & those who commit suicide will rot in hell. Depression is a disease in which the level of neurotransmitter changes. You may be very strong-willed. But you don’t have control over the chemicals in your body. When that happens, people can take their lives. Would these people land in hell? As I see it…they might have been already in hell. Anyhow, God has created humans & he knows us better than anyone. I’m sure God understands. And the 2^nd most important thing is that when a person takes his life, it must have been pre-ordained. What’s his fault? Everything was already written. It was his destiny.

I have been thinking that what’s more difficult: to end your life or to continue living when there is no point? I believe everyone will have a different answer. Some people will just call suicide an act of cowardice. I can’t use this kind of word for a victim, cause there is a scientific explanation & I believe in it. And thank God Science has provided some answers. It’s another thing that people just don’t want those answers.

Using your brain cells is not such a hard task, but still 1 or 2 people do the crappy thinking & it works for everyone. For instance, if a 1 year old kid is being scalded, what do expect doctors to do? Can such a little child take it? Before this question, there are other pertinent questions: how was the hot water spilled on the child? Was it an accident or a deliberate act? This could have been a case of child abuse, but no one even bothers to find out as to how the child was being scalded in the 1^st place? The child dies & they claim doctors to be responsible for the death. Everyone is fixing the blame. No one wants to know the real story.

This is how the society works…yeah it sucks big time! There was a time when I used to say how saddening all this is, but now I can’t even say that. Again the question is what’s more difficult: accepting the story in circulation or using your brain cells?

You won’t believe it, but some people will even find this difficult – ‘My favourite 18 holes’ turned out to be a total waste of money & time as it was about golf.

Finally I got it

You know we often hear the word mad & this poor word has been abused over the centuries. Who are mad people? The answer again varies from people to people. Anyway, I think I know who is ‘Crazy # 1.’ They are the fucking terrorists, murderers, rapists, molesters, racists, animal abusers & all the others who think they can fuck with other peoples’ lives.

Crazy # 2 are people who very conveniently call others mad. Since this is my blog & I can say this & why not? After all, they have been calling others mad without any genuine reason. If it’s just prejudiced on which they label others as lunatics or losers, then it’s not a good enough reason. Crazy # 2 are also people who make others feel bad. All of us can give examples. I think all those people are mad who are dead against my cats & all the other animals anywhere in the world. All those people are mad who themselves don’t do anything for the betterment of the society & find faults in all those who do a little. I never ask anyone to adopt animals or to shower them with love & affection. Why would I ask fuckers for such favors? I also don’t ask people to eat shit or drink piss of my cats or to clean their mess. It’s really madness on their part to have issues with my cats & other animals. And if you ask me how mad is that? I’d say: Very!

You can define Crazy # 3, 4 & 5 for yourself. It reminds me of my old # though.

Now I will move on to the weird folks. These are the ones who also call others mad, but still we can’t be unjust & biased, so we throw them under the category of weirdos. Again there would be innumerable examples & I’m sure you guys also know many out there who could be labeled as weirdos for being not just weird, but also for bothering others. Alright. I’ll give one absolutely funny example. You know just like you I also happen to know fake people. If you don’t know them, then you must be very lucky! ‘3 cheers for you!’ But where do you live? Actually I know such characters who have issues with other fakers (who just happen to be more fake). Bas thoray ziada fake hain, par type eik hee hai. In spite of that, differentiation & discrimination exist at every level. How weird!

I don’t know whether to call these people weird or what. They are the ones who pretend to be happy or something they are not all the while & the entire world knows it & you know when the entire world knows something, people crack jokes. Regardless of anything, these people go on pretending. It’s a little sad case (Here I have the urge to say the dialogue of Amitabh: ‘Mera tou dil hee kuch aisa hai’) as these people are hurt & it seems they don’t have the courage to face the truth themselves. People also call them mad, but are they mad? These are people who are suffering & yet pretending that everything is okay. They are in a state of denial & people call them mad. This is fucking wrong.

And if still some people are stupid enough to think that Z & I are mad, they need to think again. But what the hell am I asking? Had they been thinking or using their fucking brain cells, this planet would have been different.

Even though no one has the right to judge & yet everyone thinks it’s their birth right. They know exactly what you should do.

Yesterday I read this:

“I don’t need sex. Life fucks me whenever it can.”

We’ve heard this a number of times, but have you started enjoying it? If someone would say yes, they would call him mad. Bhai problem kya hai. Dard jab hadd say guzarta hai, tou dawa ban jata hai. And if someone would just raise the question kay I haven’t been enjoying this fuck shuck, how do we screw life? Now this individual will definitely bagged the award of the biggest lunatic.

And Z I have actually proved your statement, ‘You are not my kind of mad & I am not your kind of mad’ wrong. How can 2 intelligent people be mad unless they are Einstein or someone like him? :P And we have soft curls…this is close 8)

Are you giving lessons?

Yesterday I read that Saif is giving lessons to Bebo about the old flicks. Besides asking her to see the regular classics like Casablanca, Breakfast at Tiffanys & Gone with the wind, Saif got Bebo a bunch of Marilyn Monroe’s flicks like Some like it hot & The Seven year itch. He has also recommended the 1965 thriller How to murder your wife. I wasn’t shocked that Kareena hasn’t watched all these films. Other than that, I wasn’t actually amused to read all this crap, but I couldn’t help thinking about specific specie that gives lessons or wants to see some changes in the other person.

I think my definition of love or likeness has been wrong all along. I believe you accept a person with his faults rather than reforming him. I think it’s really rude to say to someone you like that I don’t like your hairdo or I don’t like your dress-sense. You better get some education as you’re less educated & all that crap.

At the same time, I have seen people who are just into chamchagiri with their partners & friends. God knows how do they manage it, but I personally know such characters. If you aren’t being sincere, what’s the point? But then if you have met a fool, then why not make the most of the situation by buttering & securing the future.

This is actually a very funny world where the only thing that has some value is insincerity or something that is wrapped up in lies. Maybe all this happens on the surface; deep down it’s another story. It all seems quite suffocating & yet people put up with it. They complain about petty things, not the things that touch their lives so deeply.

In fact, I had no idea when I started writing…that I would be utterly bored by the time I had written the 1^st paragraph.

Dance Baby Dance

Oh I had to share this one. This morning as I logged on facebook and was scrolling through the home page I saw this link shared by this really irritating guy from somewhere. But I checked out the link and God it was truly incredible.

I was speechless. I loved the dance. I shared the video instantly and then watched it with my crib mate. Then he showed me another dance on another show...but I have to say this one is one of the best ...The Best Performance Ever!!!

This is exactly the kind of dance I love to watch...Yeah yeah...I suck at dancing and I don't spend no time on dancing or sharpening the skills also lol I am the free style dancer :P

So watch the video and Dance Baby Dance! You got to love this one...