Today I read 2 things that somehow touched my heart:
“When I kept someone else from getting hurt, did I hurt you?”
- Jodi Picoult
“Most things break, including hearts. The lessons of life amount not to wisdom, but to scar tissue & callus.”
- Wallace Stegner
I was quite furious in my post :x The strange thing is that my sister didn’t react , but I did. Actually I have been in touch with this bastard for a long time. Even though once my mom very sternly asked me to sever ties with him, but I flatly refused. My mother never liked him, but I’m the kind who just doesn’t give up on hope. And all through my life, I have never been able to help Z in any way. However, I did help my elder sister on a number of occasions who didn’t deserve that. Maybe that’s why I was pissed off. One of my friends said that I don’t listen to anyone, but no one has actually left that option open for me.
However, I have been thinking that everything happens for the right reason. No one can live with a maulana type of guy unless the female herself is also that obsessed. I’m actually a very easy person to talk to but that guy had so much difficulty while talking to me. I believe some people like to create trouble for themselves as well as for others. I often used to say to Z that how can anyone possibly live happily with this kind of an individual.
I do think it’s low on anyone’s part to inform someone who was once mad about you that you have proposed someone. I so had the urge to write PER-Posed. Couldn’t help asking myself as to what would I do if someone has the audacity to tell me something of the sort. I guess I won’t have any problem in hitting that person across the face. My sister forces me to watch this drama in which the wife puts up with shit of her very old & rich husband…I’m not going to watch it again & I also don’t think much of women who put up with so much shit. I think one should just slap such bastards & leave them.
If anyone loves you…that should be taken as a compliment rather than a burden, if you can’t return that love. I don’t know if time heals everything. Scars don’t go away.
I was also mad as I often block things. His stupidity reminded me of Guy 4 & that is not a good memory. They say love is the solution to the existence of human problems but I feel so otherwise. Problems & headaches are created, cause of this feeling. Even when I hear someone else’s flop love story, my blood boils. I don’t understand why humans are so heartless & bitchy.
One of my friends says that so much of love can never go wasted. It sounds very nice. But if your heart is in the right place in spite of all the rotten experiences, then you must know that love eventually kills you or you become numb.
