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I think when a pet dies, a part of you dies as well but somehow memories keep our pet alive. Fluffy’s case was really bad. I have been thinking that he used to get ill every now & then. In spite of that even the vets didn’t know that he could have severe health problem.
Although we got the X-ray report from that bizarre lab before the surgery but today we got the blood test report. Nothing was normal & he couldn’t have survived unless there had been some miracle & miracles don’t happen. He must have been in so much pain. I feel bad about it. There are times when we must euthanize the pet. I even suggested it but somehow I couldn’t convince anyone. I also wanted Fluffy to live as my mother was mad about him. She loved him more than any of her children & Fluffy was also a far better child. Beyond any doubt, his blood test result was scary. And he was such a happy boy. He never used to scratch us. He never used get mad at us even though he must have been in so much pain for so long.
I did put down Rhea, Tommy & Ash, & I don’t regret it at all. Rhea & Tommy had leukemia & Ash had maggots in one of his legs. Ash didn’t use to stay in the house & at some point his leg could have been amputated. I couldn’t help Fluffy, Tokyo & Princey & this is such a bad feeling. I believe if you truly care about someone, then you must take an action. You don’t care as to what is right or wrong. You could make things easier for that pet or person. We can’t share the pain but we can lessen it to some extent. I couldn’t & I still can’t forgive myself.
My mother once told me that she cried for days when Aurangzeb died. I wanted Fluffy to live for obvious reason. But nevertheless this had to happen. And thank God we were with me at the last moment. I’ve read about people dying all alone & that is so saddening. Fluffy was indeed lucky.
“For some life lasts a short while, but the memories it holds last forever.”
Laura Swenson
Fluffy was like touching a dream. I bet my pretty baby is having one hell of a time right now with all the sexy cats.
