Today I woke up a little early than usual & I went for shopping. For a long time, I thought shopping was the answer to everything. But it is not. A friend of mine said that I must look out for the signs & I could see Fluffy. I went to water someone’s plant in Fairy Land & that fairy’s name was Fluffy. I also met a lady in the book shop who inquired about Fluffy as she saw him in the clinic. I heard his song in one of the shops.
Whenever I think about his surgery, innumerable check-ups, irritating lab tests etc etc, I get pissed off. Even when Princey died, I did complain that we don’t have ICU for animals. We love our pets but we can’t take care of them the way professionals could after a surgery.
Although now we are just left with memories but some memories are extremely painful. I can’t even look at his pics as every time I do, I end up crying. I did change my display pic also a couple of times but then I wasn’t even happy with that change.
A couple of times, I call Mickey Fluff by mistake. I used to call Fluffy ‘ma fluffa toy’ & today I even called out another cat in the same manner.
And now he is reduced to a sign. Quite frankly, I don’t know if time heals the wounds, cause I still can’t get over Princey & Tokyo, & now Fluffy too is added to the list.
