Although this is nothing new but I still want to shed some light on it. I’ve seen that I’ve met some very good people on the net. And the other thing I somehow get along with foreigners better than people of my own country. Exceptions are there of course but still the net result is not that awesome. As far as my foreigner friends (both men & women) are concerned, they never make me uneasy. They give me space.
Anyway on a number of occasions I’ve mentioned that I only talk about what I want to talk about…I never go further than that. I also don’t see the need of talking about everything, be it good or bad. Some things are just for me.
Lately some of my desi friends gave me headaches. I am the kind of person who keeps friends at a distance. I don’t attach so much significance to friendship either. It’s sure fun to have friends around but that’s it. If they need to talk about something, I’m there. But I don’t like being pushed by anyone. Some of my friends actually do not even know me. And I can’t explain things to people, because I’m just never in the mood.
About female Pakistani friends, I have observed that when they are about to get married or they have met someone, they tend to become weird. You don’t have to tell everything but when you hide, you should have to have some talent. Then another desi friend was into this…Nadira you must share things, you don’t. I don’t have to. If I need to talk, I do have people. I have been on the battlefield for a long time & I don’t believe in shortcuts. I also don’t make deals as I don’t have to. This other so-called friend can’t miss the opportunity of hitting on me. Even though I said it very openly that I’m not remotely interested in anything but some people are really dumb.
People do give me a bad feeling but such friends make me feel suffocated. I don’t miss my best friend but it was different. There is no such thing as a substitute. She might have hurt me & I might have hurt her. It’s not that she’s hard to replace but that place is going to stay vacant. Some guy friends think they can become my best friend. I already have a sister who is better than the rest of the world. Then I’m the kind of person who makes better friends with females. I just don’t like too much frankness & guys are usually stupid.
Some of my female friends are either into lying or hiding. In fact I shouldn’t even use the word friends for such people. These people aren’t bitchy though & you can’t call them bitches. I don’t get negative vibes either. However, I also don’t like extra sweet people. And I don’t like people who hide things when there are on smooth seas whereas when they are on a sinking ship, everything is different.
